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Summer 2014: Prose


Ten bike-lengths up ahead, a brown lump rests on the fog line of the shoulder-less highway. If it’s scat, I’d put money on bear.

I’m a lone female pedaling through southwestern Montana – the Ruby Valley, named for abundant garnets. It’s bear country and I’m heading toward West Yellowstone. July. Bears are hungry, not ravenous, right?

Scat isn’t one of those things that typically prompts me to stop. If a slow approach reveals something compelling – shape, odor, contents, signature – only then will I get off and look.

It could be man-made, a work glove or knit hat.

The lump doesn’t hold a solid edge like a pile of scat – it wavers ever so slightly. Closer still, crisp lines. Road kill. I’m excited, as if this dead animal were a longed-for birthday present. I unclip from my pedals, stand straddling my bike and look down at tidy, chocolate-colored feathers. Long black eyelashes set against a white face-blaze as if it were napping. The little beak, curved into the road, the color of the road. Posed like me when I take a nap, belly down, head turned to the side, wings folded, feathers spread out like a blanket. A slight breeze raises some feathers on its back; they flap noiselessly back into place.

I take a picture from above, then take another with my mind’s eye, clip in and continue on.

How did it die? No one better drive over it and crush it.

I turn around and come back up to it. This time, I dismount from my bike and lay it down on the embankment. Three male cyclists loaded with touring gear stop on the other side of the road.

“Do you need help?” one of them asks.

“No thanks,” I say. We talk across the road. “There’s this little owl. It doesn’t seem right to let it get squashed on the road. I’m going to move it.” To my relief, the cyclists continue on and I turn to the owl.

I don’t often find owls dead on the road, and it isn’t simply that they become husk and chaff. Feathers don’t stick to the road – they still try to lift off when cars pass.

Does the spirit stay connected? When a car drives over the physical trace, is the spirit brutalized, does it feel crush and tread mark again and again? Just thinking about the owl getting crunched triggers a muscular lurch through my torso that starts deep in my pelvis and ends in my esophagus. Four years back, when I was biking to work, I cut the crossing too close: three lanes of cars, mad engines accelerating. I was depressed, already felt dead, had thrown away everything precious. Nothing mattered.

In that instant, in front of the cars, the assumed impact entered my right side, knee ripped sideways, leg breaking at the femur, rib cage collapsing and the broken bones piercing my lungs, liver and heart, blood flooding my insides, head hitting the road, and blackness.

On the other side of the intersection, I didn’t know what had just happened – or hadn’t happened. I thought I was dead. I looked to the street behind me for a clue, an anchor. I didn’t see myself a bloody splatter on the road or my bike a knot of metal, just the cars rushing past. I continued pedaling, looked at my chest, arms, legs, feet, hands – same, same, same, same, same. I guessed I was alive.

I pick up the owl, fold its wings around its body, light and tiny in my cycling-gloved palms. The owl’s head hangs forward, long neck hidden and weighted by its skull. I turn the owl over and hold it in my left hand, tracing with my fingertips the bones along its left wing, then the right. The wing bends between elbow and wrist where the wing should be strong and rigid, the shattered bone crushed like eggshell. I slide my fingers down the brief slope of its beak, touch the tawny feathers on its breast, so soft I can’t feel them, then its feet. The tiny talons, black daggers, the toes that hold them, yellow, dainty and gecko-like, their undersides minutely dimpled and rough-looking, sticking out from sandy bloomers. I take up a toe between thumb and index finger, the talon, smooth and warm with a sharp point, like a cat’s claw.

I step down the embankment and lay the owl on curled dead leaves at a plant’s base.

Let a coyote run off with it, let microbes eat it molecular mouthful by molecular mouthful. Give the spirit a chance to gently disengage, like a spider web pulled down one anchor at a time.

I climb up the embankment, heft my bike back onto the road and journey on.

Every day, every moment, the owl’s fate could be my own. I live and pedal in acknowledgement of this. I only hope that when death arrives, a radiant heart will free my feathers from the road.

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        Out of Eden by Melanie Green

        Under the Tongue by Cindy Stewart-Rinier

        it wasn’t the rain by Ann Sinclair

        And the King Was in the Counting House by Geraldine Foote

        Aurelia Aurita: Moon Jelly by Lois Rosen

        What Cape Alava Was Like Then by Linda Strever

        ʻAʻā by Burky Achilles

        Still Life With Cabbage by Margaret Chula

        Mother of the Drowned Child by Penelope Scambly Schott

        Summer, When Green Turns by Cindy Stewart-Rinier

        Relic by Jennifer Foreman

        From the yes column of “is there a god?” checklist by Jennifer Foreman

        Binders Full of Women by Shawn Aveningo

        Even in February Every Woman Wants to Be a Feast by Claudia Savage

        Weddings I Have Ruined by Tanya Jarvik

        Thicker Than Water by Claudia Savage

        Weekend Wayfarers by Elizabeth Stoessl

        Wordscape by Tanya Jarvik

        Talking Herself into Onward by Melanie Green


        Tribes by Thea Constantine

        Carnage by Heidi Beierle

        Owyhee Barbie by Marylynne Diggs

        Permeable Divide by Kamala Bremer

        Pepper Anderson Meets the Amazon by Linda Ferguson

        The Day I Stopped Typing by Kate Comings


        Brooke by Oriana Lewton-Leopold

        Elizabeth by Oriana Lewton-Leopold

        Silence Considered by Carole Murphy

        The Egg Sisters by Carole Murphy

        Garden Gate by Koka Filipovic

        Purple Shade in the Garden by Koka Filipovic

        Untitled with a Flamingo by Amy Robinson

        It's My Party by Amy Robinson


        A Work of Art by Leilani Garcia

        What the Bees Did to Me by Colette Au

        Things I never said by Molly Benson

        Wabi-Sabi by Janet Webster

        Foresters by Sophia Mautz